last weekend i was talking to my therapist about my recent attempts to reconnect with my spirituality. she said something to the effect of "i love talking about spirituality with my clients. but here's the thing i always tell them: it's really great to pray or however you want to approach the idea of prayer, but the challenging part is listening for the answer." i kind of agree with this. well i totally agree with it, but i guess i don't think listening is that challenging. if you start paying attention and being present in each moment, you really do notice synchronicities that at least FEEL like the universe is trying to reveal something to you. i don't know, i could be wrong. i will say i wish the universe would drop some fantastic career options on my head, but i realize that's not exactly how it works.
anyway, i was reading in the hollywood reporter that shekhar kapur is taking over anthony mingella's last project he was working on when he passed away. shekhar might be somewhat inconsistent as a filmmaker, but i always have liked him because he was super cool to me when i met him at the press junket for "elizabeth." so i was thinking, gee, what else is he up to and a little googling led me to a little blog he keeps on his website. and my eye falls on this entry. and i realized that i've been a complete asshole about my showers. to tell the truth, i've known and felt guilty for a while now about my shower assholishness. i once started to write an essay titled "my higher power lives in the bathtub." (stop making fun of me.) regardless, recently i've been taking longer and longer showers. my husband calls it my time warp. i have always said i do my best thinking in the shower, and i've been doing a LOT of thinking lately. my whole epiphany while i was sick happened in the shower. but you know, it's really selfish and narcissistic to spend that much time in the shower when humanity is facing the apocalyptic shit we're facing. and i think maybe this is one of those little smacks upside the head from the universe- stop being such a spoiled brat and if you really need some quiet, relaxing "me" time, take a little bath. or learn to commune with your higher power in a place less...wet. this is my new promise.
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