well, sorta at least. like pretty much everything else i do, i started this post on a whim before realizing i didn't really have much to say.
ok well maybe i actually do have a lot to say but my thoughts aren't particularly organized.
so...why am i here? i guess the inspiration for this post is is "weight loss journey." HA! typing that is making me lol at myself. seriously though, i really hate that phrase. it makes me so angry. why the fuck is it a journey? and who really cares about your weight loss "journey?" i don't even read travel blogs. but here's the thing- i broke my leg in december. not jumping out of a plane, not skiing, not doing anything really except packing and moving boxes around our former home. so when my ankle swelled up randomly one day i went to the orthopedist and he thought i had GOUT. now that's pretty embarassing to have a doctor tell you that when you're not even 40 yet and you don't THINK you look like ben franklin. but after an MRI he realized i had a stress fracture in my fibula. so i wore a boot around for a month or so. and it's supposedly healing but it still kinda really hurts. and i asked him when i can start to exercise again and he told me...i can't. well not until i lose weight first. i'm not like obese or anything but since i had my kid a few years ago the pounds have started to pack on. (yeah! i had a kid. he's something else.) so yeah i think i'm carrying about 35 pounds i really don't need. and getting older hasn't done my metabolism any favors. the doctor seriously told me "once you lose weight, then you can start exercising, and THEN you can eat again." then you can eat again. THEN YOU CAN EAT AGAIN. and he wasn't even mean about it, just totally matter of fact and cheerful.
so....that sucks. but goddamn if i'm going on a WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY. i learned how to make zoodles and i'm zoodling all over the place and that's nice and all but i'm not going to start like SHARING MY PALEO INSPIRATIONS and extolling the virtues of ketosis and crap. i am going to admit however that i do realize it's time to get my shit together in a lot of ways. i need to get back to writing my book. i need to organize my life (like seriously my closet right now is just a giant mountain of crap in a pile, like if it fell on me i'd be suffocated promptly). i need to like...be one of those people who does crafts with their kids. i dunno i just need to be more...productive. so i'm probably going to be writing about all that here. we can call it my NOT BEING A LAZYASS JOURNEY. it's probably going to be really boring and i honestly don't care if anyone reads it, i think this is just my way of sort of trying to hold myself publicly accountable. hopefully i'll be a little funny occasionally (if you find self deprecation funny.) so yeah. HERE WE GO.